Dear God-Avenge Sevenfold

A lonely road crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there, back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of You
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
?Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no, once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of You
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no, once again

Well, some search never finding a way
Before long they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold when hope begins to fade

A lonely road crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find

Dear God, the only thing I ask of You
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no, once again

Btw, buat ceceku tercinta, percaya ngga aku masukin lirik ini buat km?? wakkakakka (hooeekk).. eh, Blogmu apik!!!! XD hahahhaa....

tired....

Tired....
Totally, i'm stress and tired!!!! I got assignment, i got exam, i got my club activity... OMG..... i feel like quitting =.=

Sould I be Happy????

Well, long long time ago.. Back when i was still in Indonesia, i often wonder, "why i cannot be as pretty as my friends, or maybe as seducing as them? So i'll got a lot of boy admiring me and trying to caught me.." That was all the things that come into my mind at that time..
But now, i feel like what i wishing for come true. Yeah, i never check how many people like me (like i would bother about that) but there's some that i know. And from that some, i try to think like what my friends think: "Boys care is a bliss". Well, after i got their care, i didn't find any bliss.. What i found is I GOT A TOTAL STALKER RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!! *scream*
They keep on trying to get close to me (more like clinging), asking me about what i do and how i feel for the whole day (that make me shiver actually). Such as: "gimana latiannya non??"
and I wanna answer: "what u wanna know?? ok, I pee 5 times just now, yawning 10 times, walking for maybe thousand times.."
You should know la, even my mom never ask me about that =.=

and the worst is, at that time this stalker trying to find me after i came back from St. Joseph home and i'm very very tired, some more have to do assignment that have to pass up a few days later..
He said, "Eh ayolah keluar makan!!"
i answer, "Ngga bisa la, Sibuk, ada banyak assignment!"
he said, "Masak makan aja gak sempet? BEntar aja kok!"
i answer, "Kok maksa sih?"
he said, "Bukan maksa, ngajak aja.. hehehe" (ngajak tapi abis ditolak masi ngeyel gitu, itu namanya ngajak ya... wow baru tau =.=)

Well, now can anyone give answer.. Should i be happy because of this people or maybe i should cry....

Belajar samaa.....

Suatu hari, aku ketemu ma temen aku orang indonesia yang tinggal di Penang.. Dia mau ambil ujian apa gitu buat masuk universitas di malaysia..

L1: Eh, rencananya mau ambil apa??
L2: Business Management, enaknya ngambil dimana ya???
M: Ambil d UUM aja mau??
L2: Ah, UUM?? Ngga ah, ntar belajarnya ma monyet...
L1: *speechless*...

Then i should tell my daddy last time that i don't want to study in USM since here i have to study with a lot of biawak....XD

Cinta Bersyarat?

Once upon a time... halah....=.=
Dulu, aku masih inget ada temenku pernah bilang "Cinta manusia di dunia itu tidak kekal, cinta mereka semua bersyarat. Kalo kamu ngga bisa memnuhi syarat itu, ya mereka ngga akan mencintai kamu lagi". Jujur aja, awalnya, aku ga percaya dengan kata-kata kayak gitu, kesannya negatif banget... Tapi, sekarang... Aku ngga tau.... Aku merasa apa yang diomongin itu ada benernya.. Mungkin suatu kali nanti ortuku akan berhenti mencintai, mungkin suatu saat persaudaraan ngga akan ada artinya, mungin suatu saat cinta itu cuma Bullshit....
Sekarang, masalahku sama temen deketku bener-bener bikin kecewa.. Well, she straightly left me just when she found out that i cannot give her what she wants... Yeah, so pathetic right?? While i'm here, waiting for her... What a total moron..
Le kayak gitu carae, mungkin mending dari awal aku ngga pernah berteman, aku ngga usah suka cowok, aku ngga usah peduli orang lain... Apa itu lebih baek???

Disappointed...

I feel so disappointed today :(( TOtally....
I never thought before that she was a total loser. I'm really really arrggh.. cannot explain already...
Last time i thought she would stay with me no matter what happen, helping me in my problem and anything else. But, just when one big problem come she straightly leaving me, telling me a lot of f*ucking stupid reason while her intention only running away. I'm tired.. totally...
My expectation on her really gone already. Now in my eyes she is not more than a goner. I'm waiting, and waiting, even trying to approach her ONCE MORE.. and she still ignored...
Should i really give up?? So the next time when we meet each other let's become a ordinary friends. Just forget everything, cuz to tell you the truth, i really really hurt by your way ignoring me.. If you feel you really can't solve that problem you can come and tell me rather than runaway by saying a thousand words that really can hurt me more.....
So... anyone.. can give answer?? =.=
haizzz... siao dy.....

HECTIC week

Hi guys.. long time no see.. Yeah, i'm quite hectic lately. So many assignment in the same deadline, project group that haven't be done yet, and a bit no time for myself...
Yah, i quite pampering myself last time on the 2weeks holiday and now time to work hard again, some more HIV conference is coming soon... NOOO!!!!
So, yeah, that's all i wanna say, this week is quite crazy and according to my senior next next week will be crazier.. So i hope i still alive by then.. hahahhaha
See u all next time.. :D

suatu hari nanti

ketika angin dingin bertiup
membawa pergi cahaya hidup
harapan hilang
jiwa ini menjadi gersang

menelan pahitnya hari ini
menghilangkan harapan esok hari
terkadang ku bertanya
untuk apa diri ini nyata

namun, kini angin telah berganti
kehangatan memeluk hati
jiwa ini kembali berseri
karena dia tidak sendiri.....


satu puisi buat ***.. face everything, i know it won't be easy... but, sure the time will come when you can find the real happiness and U ARE NOT ALONE!!!!
so please, i beg, dun hurt yourself (wes elek nti tambah cacad.. wakakakkak)

My Crazy Family

Hi guys, due to some request from so many people.. I choose to post my family tree here.. ok, ready to listen and dun pengsan cuz it's maybe a bit complicated.. hahahahha
From My mommy side:

here... confused?? you'll get more confused soon.. hahahhaha

PCCG camp

Hi Guys!!!
I'm back from my camp.. wohooo!!! So happy.. I really miss this camp, hope can gather again next time.. hehehehhe
This camp was held in Cameron Highland, Tanah Rata for 4 days 3 night. Well, it's 5 days 4 night for us since we go earlier. But it such a wonderful journey with all my CUS family.. My parents, my grandparents, my great grandparents, my daughter and all my jiran.. hehehehe :P
Camp in Cameron really remind me with Youth camp in Tumpang, but Cameron is colder (luckily we got hot water!!) We gone through a lot of session and bonding.. I got a new friends, family and experience!! *miss it already.. hux*
Now, i start to miss all my friends there, the committee also (my great grandpa, my engineering campus friends, uum, upm students, and all that i can't mention.. huhuhu) i hope next year we'll have it again...

One of the session that i can't forget is the drama session, my friends become a girl!! Woow, he's soo pretty!! See... I laugh out laud when i know it was him (btw, he'll curse me if he know i put his pic in my blog.. hehehhe) but he is really really pretty~~ kyaaa... lol










Another bonding session that we had is photo taking, i'm still waiting for my friends uploading our photo.. But, there's some photo already.. This is my family photo...
This family consist of (read from left to right) my great grandparents, Marcella Pimid and Arthur James; my parents, Peter Chin and Claire Marie (divorce already.. lol); my single grandma, Maureen Chua; My aunty, Akam Chin; Me and my beloved daughter, Elovera.. This family is a bit (or you can say very complicated) since my daddy have an affair with ********.. hahahahha


And this is the sugar cube that my family give to me.. lol.. this is from my grandma Mau2.. hehehhee *muax*


This is from my Great Grandpa, Arthur.. btw, where's my lollipop??













And this is from my beloved daughter, Elo..


There's my(horny) daddy also^^


And the last s from anak jiran, Debby Chia (Elos' friends.. hahahha)














That's All for PCCG.. In conclusion I really have a GREAT FUN!!!Love IT!!! =)

Ah, lupa mention, ada orang gila letak pen dalam envelop saya... lol

1 Love Message to My Jie Jie

Buat my lovely elder sister... Jie jie, sikat gigi yang bener ya, masa sakit gigi bolak balik.. wakakkaka.. ntar ompong sebelum tua.. wuakakakakakakakkaka.. lol...
Kentara tiap hari langsung tidur ga pake sikat gigi, makannya sakit gigi mulu.. wikikikikikikikik.. roflmao

Hilang

Ketika kupandang jalan di depan mata

sepi, sunyi tak bernyawa
Kegelapan melanda
kesedihan bercerita..

Hati ini bagaikan kertas
terkoyak dan meninggalkan bekas
tak dapat kembali meski berkeras
luka lama kian terkelupas..

Hidup kini kian hampa
hilang sudah tawa dan canda
pergi berlari bersama jiwa
terbawa angin entah kemana..

btw, merasa aneh kalo mesti nulis dalam bahasa indonesia.. kudu2 keluar bahasa melayunya.. hahahahha.. but i made it!!! *proud*

Guinea Pig

Got someone wanna find a guinea pig of mine.. hahahaha... Are u kidding me??? Don't you remember what God said that He made each one of us differently?? But, maybe it's not applied to you since you are scared for facing the truth and take care of it.. Just tell me since the start that you wanna run away, you don't want to end it and ask me to do it..
And this is my message, if you later find my guinea pig, no need to come back to me and end it cuz you already find 'another me' that can accept your 'runaway' and wait till when she going to stay with you and left you again...
This is my message as your best friends if you still think so.. The last thing, now i start to wonder, whether fight for our friendship is worth enough since you choose to runaway....


oh ya, then i can find my elder sisters' guinea pig: sun go kong aka. monkey.. hahahaha