Suka-suka Gue dong!!!

Aku paling benci, ama orang yang kerjaannya nge-add bbm orang abis itu ngajak kenalan. Sorry man, you can say i'm too cautious bla bla bla... But, you need to cope with it, it's my style and this is me. If u can't accept it, you can go away..
Ok, so this is what happen. ada cowo kepedean satu, yang hobinya ngajak kenalan temen2 dari satu negara. Fine, it's totally fine.. Tapi, please la, you are the one who add my bbm correct? Yang minta diapprove sapa? Tolong ngaca.. Kalo minta kenalan jangan maksa. Ini peringatan untuk semua cowo, GAK SEMUA CEWE SUKA DIGENITIN! And don't try to lure me out with your sarcastic joke, because i use sarcasm too, and i know how to reply you back.
Kalo dulu uda minta-minta di add, abis itu waktu diapprove jadi kek gini, mending cari cewe laen aja yang bisa digenitin.. Sori mas, but my taste of joke is not as low as yours. Dan kalo cewe mau kirim gambar ato nggak, ya suka-suka dia dong, orang yang punya gambar ama muka yanga cewe, kok maksa?
Kalo mau marah, mau nyindir-nyindir.. Sorry man, mau bilang gue tebel muka? Bilang aja! Emang lo siapa? dan yang terakhir, EMANG GUE PIKIRIN? Gak kenal lu gua gak mati kali yaa.. Iya kalo muka lu seganteng Orlando Bloom, kalo jelek rugi dong gua kenalan ama cowo maksaan.
Btw, kalo masi maksa pengen tau muka, mending lu cari cewe laen aja mas. Sori ya, tp mau lu bilang gua malu gara2 muka gue jelek kek, apa kek.. Emang gue pikirin? Belum tentu juga muka lu setara ma muka gua.. ;;)

Friends...

Hm.. I wonder with a certain people that walk in and out in my life. Each one of them have some special personalities that i need to understand. But, on the other hand there is also certain people i cannot understand. Yeah, she can think she's special.. Yes, indeed she is very special...
For me, from the bottom of heart, friends are a precious things.. Who are you without them? Even having a friend, if she can love you so much and sacrifice anything for you, it was the best things in the world. Don't try to teach me the meaning of betrayal, i felt it, last year. It was damn painful. When your first friends in Malaysia, the people you trust the most, the people you appreciate them most, just tell you that they actually don't need you. The people you think as your family here use another person account to chat and humiliate you there. They said you are a bitch, fucking annoying, useless, slow and princess type who cannot do anything. It took me one year to told you everything that they said because, whenever i wanna tell to people last time, i end up crying and cannot said anything. You might said i exaggerating it, it's fine. But for me, i'm alone here and to find friends who can be a family to me, is priceless.
So then, when i see this certain creature i'm beyond shock. Ok, to make it clearer, let me compare it with my last friends...
She: everyone try to accept her, even how annoying she is, everyone still celebrate her birthday, still help her when she needs, still worried about her.. Even how much you be bossy to them and said a bad thing to them..
Me: last time, they force to me like them and i can't be myself. I tried to hard please them and they don't care. When they saw me sick, they don't even wanna look. When i need help, they don't even offer their help. When it's my birthday, NONE OF THEM SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. So, clear, CAN YOU REFLECT HOW DAMN LUCKY YOU ARE?

She: when you do annoying stuff they tell you nicely, even though you never want to listen. When you make a lame joke they tried to laugh even how lame it is. When they unintentionally left you out, they said sorry
Me: last time, if i do annoying stuff they don't mind to shout to me in front of everyone and humiliate me. When i made a lame joke sometimes they just stay quiet and sometimes pretend not to hear anything. When they unintentionally left me out they just say "oh" and don't even bother (i'm not sure until now whether they unintentionally or intentionally do that).. SO?? YOU ARE A LUCKY GIRL ok???

She: Even though how much they angry at you, they just curse you a while and it gone.. The next day they will hug you will full smile..
Me: ME?? Of course, they use another person account to humiliate me and the next day "LIA, ANYTHING HAPPEN TO YOU?" (as if they did not do it yesterday).. And until now, i never hear a single sorry word from them, and they already think everything between us is ok..

Now, you are the luckiest person in the world, to find those kind of friends on your first year.. Not like me.. So why, i don't understand, when they tried to correct you, you scold them, angry at them, as if your are the goddess of righteousness. I think you yourself had realize, this time all senior tried avoid you, and now you tried to approach the junior. I did not forbid you, but why, instead of mend the broken relationship with your senior or your first junior, you make it worse? But on the other hand you tried so hard to find friends. Girls, we all here for you.. Even me.. You said a positivist, but you can't even see the positive side.. You ignore those who love you and find a new one...
Let me remind you, you can stay that way. But friends are human and human have feelings and feelings have its time. When the times is up, everything is gone. You won't be able to mend it anymore. And when you not able to mend it, you screwed.. Trust me, i think i'm 60% sure i saw the future of you in someone else and i pray hard for you to not be like her. But if that is path that you have chosen, i'll appreciate it. It's you life, it's your choice.


Let me take it as a reminder to myself.. and to everyone who ever did that way to their friends. I'm not prefect, i might hurt my friends too.. If i do, i would like to say I'm very sorry..

Birthday Surpirse!!!

I wanna say thanks to those who give me surprise on that day .. Yeah, anyone of you prepare for me. It was really shocking, trust me i don't expect anything. I'm very tension already that day because of tired (and also because of a douche bag) so in my mind i only think of sleeping and pummeling that douche bag to death .. I still remember, i complain and i shout a lot that night, ask everyone to cooperate and wished that the rehearsal will end faster (and thanks for those who drag it, it looks natural or maybe i'm the one that too tired to see through it.. hahahaha)
Well, to tell you the truth, i felt sad that day. My blackberry off (no battery), so means no one can contact me and i miss home. I miss my house badly . I miss to celebrate with my family, even though there is no cake, no birthday song and my mom is busy, but i just miss it. I miss to see my crazy sister screaming beside my ear to tell me happy birthday, tell me that i am old but in fact she still older and already have some wrinkles (wakakakkaka ). I just miss everything.. that's why, that night my mood totally like shit. I wanted to slap everyone who bug me or make an annoying stuff in front of me (including what that douche bag do). But, that birthday party release my tension, i cried.. Hahaha, at least i feel relieved and better. It's nice...
Somehow, my prayer come true. When i found out that the schedule for this semester change, i was sad, i cried. I told my sister "I wanna go back for my birthday, i'm scared there".. That time, she just answer me with sentence "Pray to Him that you won't be alone for your birthday" and i pray for it. I'm scared. But, i'm glad, that it's come true.. I'm not alone, my family here still love me.. :D and i'm glad for it...
To him who buy the whole cake, thank you for still remembering my birthday.. It means a lot to me.. Really a lot...
To kembar and his gang who drove so far from engineering campus, thank you. U all made my day.. It's really a surprise..
To CUS member, thank you for dragging the time.. hahahhaha... Thanks a lot for Ajusshi, Mami, Melissa, Maureen, Jasper, Pharmacy gang (double J, Al, Tiff and LS), elo, debby, vera, beth, and those that i did not name it here really thank you!!!