Here I am Lord

I, the Lord of sea and sky,
I have heard My people cry.
All who dwell in dark and sin,
My hand will save.
I who made the stars of night,
I will make their darkness bright.
Who will bear My light to them?
Whom shall I send?

Here I am Lord, Is it I Lord?
I have heard You calling in the night.
I will go Lord, if You lead me.
I will hold Your people in my heart.

I, the Lord of snow and rain,
I have born my peoples pain.
I have wept for love of them, They turn away.
I will break their hearts of stone,
Give them hearts for love alone.
I will speak My word to them,
Whom shall I send?

Here I am Lord, Is it I Lord?
I have heard You calling in the night.
I will go Lord, if You lead me.
I will hold Your people in my heart.

I, the Lord of wind and flame,
I will tend the poor and lame.
I will set a feast for them,
My hand will save
Finest bread I will provide,
Till their hearts be satisfied.
I will give My life to them,
Whom shall I send?

Here I am Lord, Is it I Lord?
I have heard You calling in the night.
I will go Lord, if You lead me.
I will hold Your people in my heart.

We sang this song for the whole week in the Youth Camp, tumpang, malang. The theme is Send Me Lord. Actually this camp was not for university students, but since i really wanted to know about 'what Gods want with me to do' so i just go.. hahahha..
The whole process of this camp was really really a miracle.. Started from the time i register until the end of the camp. I felt like Gods really have a plan in my life. Another miracle was, finally i know what for he send me. Even until now i am still a bit shock but i want to serve him more.. So if i have to walk in this path i'll do it.. Like what the lyrics said:

Here I am Lord, Is it I Lord?
I have heard You calling in the night.
I will go Lord, if You lead me.
I will hold Your people in my heart.

Send me lord and make me...

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Amin...

About him

if i have to talk about my parents, then the one that will appear in my mind is my dad. It's not like i hate my mom or i don't care about her, she also have a big place in my heart, but my dad figure is the one that i can't forget.
Ok, to tell you a bit about my dad, my dad it's not an ordinary dad like others. He never hit me even once. He taught me a lot of things when i was small, like how to memorizing things, how to face my problem, even he also worked at that time, but he never even forget about his children. Another of his extraordinary personality is: he is very lame, very very lame.. hahaha.. He never change his style, if you see then you'll know, sometimes he came out with a lame joke or even with such a clumsy attitude... hahhaha. When i was small i used to hate his lameness, but now i realize that i have to accept him no matter what and i will be proud of him..
Now, he wasn't as strong as before. When the most vital thing that he has was lost, sometimes he seems like a lifeless man, like someone who lose in a big battle.. But despite of that problem, he still stand up, support me, my brother and my sister without even feels tired. He stand strong, as if he was the wisest man he tried to do his best to this family..
Sometimes i think, when we love our mother and show it to her but forgetting to show our love for our father. Actually, our father is the one that always love us from behind, support us when we gonna fall and only smile in the silent when they see our success...

btw, guys i'll be off for one week.. i'll go to tumpang.. hahahha.. byeee....

Camwhoring at wedding party

Today i went to my sisters' brother marriage. At noon, i went to Saint Marinus Yohanes church for marriage mass and i came late because we got lost on the way there, hahaha. The marriage reception was held in oriental and the food was very delicious :P (even i can't eat so much, because my feet was so pain!!! >.<). Before the marriage reception started me and my sister do a little cam whoring since we're so pretty today, hehehe (narcissism mode: on).. Right?? when we'll be so pretty again?? so we have to save that moment!!! Agree?? Yes... hahahha..

One of our craziness in the wash room.. hahaha.. the location is soooo.... gimana getu.. hahahha

My own cam whoring at home, since i already done some make up, it was not nice if i didn't take any photo.. hahaha..

And i want to give my best regard to my cuuutee little sister: "Baju: pinjem, bando: pinjem, sepatu: pinjem juga.. hahahahaha"
i love you my little sister.. muach!!


if you want to see more photo then go to see my facebook.. hehehehe

Miracle

I really really happy today.. hehehe.. finally my mom allow me to go to tumpang after so much struggle, even the one who persuade her is my sister (big thanks to my sis *muach*). Since i was young i don't really rely on pray (even i heard a lot of miracle on it), you can say that i don't really believe on miracle of pray. My elder sister told me to pray to God, so He will make my mom heart softened and i did it today. I already lost my hope since today my mom went back quite late, usually her mood will be very bad at night, but today she just smile and allow us to go to tumpang.. Yaaayy!!! what a miracle.. ^^
Another miracle is, lately you know that i was very very depressed over my problem and i always ask to God why He didn't freeze my heart, so that i won't feel pain when i betray my friends (like they always do). And lately, there is a feeling that always haunt me: What if someday i hurt my elder sister by betraying her or something; and what if someday i hurt my best friend my leaving her all alone while i know that she needs me.. What if i do that someday without realizing it? And i realize that actually i'll be very scared if they leave me someday cause won't have someone to hold. So i make my decision "God, no need to frozen my heart because i am happy with who i am now and i am happy that i have sister and friends who'll never leave me"
Ok, i think that's all for today.. I have to wake up early tomorrow and prepare for my sisters' brother wedding party (i guess 'my sisters' brother' is a bit complicated.. hahahaha)

No idea...

hmmm.. what should i write?? i got no idea... =.=

Impossible we do, miracle we try

Lately i felt that this phrase suit for a certain group who just asked me about some impossible mission.. Well, i don't want to talk about the mission due to some sensitive issue, hahaha.. But clearly that the mission they give is totally irritating.. OMG.. hope i can succeeded this mission before the final day come.. And if this group really really can success then i'll believe in what my stupid boss said: IMPOSSIBLE WE DO MIRACLE WE TRY!!! =.=

ok.. i don't have any idea what to write next,so i'll just stop here... matta ne..

Ikuta Toma s' Addict!

Today me and my sister watched Hanazakari no Kimitachi e.. It's not a new drama, but before this i just manage to watch the Taiwanese version which is i think not really satisfying. So today we watch the Japanese version. Actually, we didn't watch from the first episodes since the dvd was suck =.=, we watched start from 7th episodes.. And we were captivated by Nakatsus role that was acted by Toma Ikuta.. OMG, he is so cuteeee XD.. Every time we saw him smile we can't hold to scream.. ohhh!!! *melt*

This is one of his hott pic!!! OMG... *melt*












btw, i gotta go now, i wanna finish watch it... Toma Ikuta, here i come!!!!! Kyaaaaaaaaa... *moe flame*

proof it!!

I accept all that you said to me.. Ok, i got said before that i was annoyed by him, but you cannot use it as a shield for you not seeking the truth.. Since you are so persistent, how about if i make this bet: I'll stay quit and let him grow, let him grow UNDER YOUR CARE and show me, proof it that I AM TOTALLY WRONG, then i'll be quiet.. Let's see, how long you can keep him like that without your heart or maybe your brain boiled up.. Then i just need your proof and i'll acknowledge my fault and change myself not criticizing him.. ok??

nb: if you loose, then don't try to ask me to be responsible for it with the reason that we are a family. Yes, truly indeed that we are a family, but just now you tell me that i am all wrong and i don't have right to tell him that.. Then Just tell him yourself ok? and take all the responsibilities all by YOURSELF! clear??!! yes...

Love this!

I dunno why lately i feel that my mood isn't that good.. I easily feel sad, angry, confused and all the heavy feelings.. Seeing this scenery i feel so relieved , don't know why i feel that this sky could understand me..
I think my heart just as this sky, cloudy (maybe after this thundering.. hahahha) and it's looks like ready to cry anytime..
It's so odd but so heartwarming..

btw, tomorrow i have to prepare some guts to see my own result.. hope it's not horrible one... huff =.=;;;

btw, credit to my friends, Chiow Yi Min, who take this photo... ^^




and this is the link for the pic: (http://www.facebook.com/yimin516?v=photos&viewas=1074399859&sb=4#!/photo.php?pid=31295813&id=1018933237)

DIE!!!

TODAY!! 9AM!! i'll get my result.. i think i have to prepare my own grave soon...

My Grandmas garden

Last sunday me and my family went to malang to visit my grandparents.. Usually a trip to malang will take around 3 hour and more since there is sea of mud that always get in our way. But this time was different, somehow we manage to woke up early (i lost to my sister for that =.=) and went there quite early, The 3 hours trip become 2 hours only..
When we reach there we greeted our grandparents, after that my mom straightly went to the back yard to see all my grandma plants.. Well, my grandma really love planting, when you go to her yard you can see a lot of beautiful tree and flower grow nicely. Last time when she still lived in blitar i was scared to go to her back yard because it's the same as you go to the small forest.. I still remember the time when my mom and my aunties chased my grandma dogs through all the yard till they got mosquito bites and beaten up.. hahaha
Actually, my grandma already reach age 75 which is quite old age, but she still can walk to the church, jogging, cooking, take care of my grandpa even cleaning her own yard and house.. wow, such a spirit!!!
Btw, this is some photo from my grandma yard and also my sis who do a lot of useless cam-whoring.. hahahha

see.. such a beautiful flower.. last time my mom tried to plant this in our house but somehow only the leafs that growing healthily but no flowers at all.. hahaha









Since i was kid i love rose very much, so when i saw this rose i asked my mom to bring it to surabaya. But rose cannot grow in such horrible weather so i can't bring it... hux...










I also love this flower because it's resemble a tulip and i love tulips very much (hope i can see it for real someday). My mom also brought this flower home and planted it there, but the flower become very small and looks so thin =.= Blame the horrible weather in surabaya!!!!!






This is another beautiful flower, orchid.. Though i have this at home but the same case as the previous plant, no flower at all!! so sad...






This plant.. I don't have any idea what kind of plant is that, but it's got leafs which is resemble butterflies.. It looks so pretty, so i asked my mom to bring it here.. Hope it can grow beautifully here.. hahahaha






O ya.. This is my sister crazy camwhoring, she asked me to take this photo due to her obsession to drive a car.. hahaha

If you wanna see more photo just check on my facebook account...

I don't know.....

What happen to me?? Yeah, i also don't know.. I feel like my head gonna burst anytime, i don't know what to do, what should i do. Now i also cannot sleep, i feel scared now. Scared of what?? I don't know....
now, I just wanna runaway from my life, maybe someone can give me the tips how to get amnesia... hahahah

Unwithered moment...

there were times
when the sky was blue
when the smiles was there

there were days
when we walked hand to hand
when we run and laugh
when we dried our tears away

That days seems had withered
along with the wind breeze
bringing the new memories

As if my heart had frozen
I could see that moment
as clear as the yesterday
and i know i would not withered away....



I miss this time.... huhuhu.... kpn kita isa ngguyu-ngguyu kyk dulu lg... =.=

Cooking time!!!!

Hmmm... mengikuti ide gila ceceku yang mau bikin gado-gado dengan nekadnya.. hahahaha

Surabaya, 1 Juni 2010, (alah, sok jadi wartawan =.=) lia dan kakanya yang berada di dapur sedang melakukan percobaan serius - membuat gado-gado - dengan harapan yang makan masih bisa selamet.. hahaha...
Pada pukul 5 sore setelah membuat panekuk, lia diseret oleh cecenya untuk beli bahan gado-gado di supermarket terdekat, kemudian masak gado-gado yang akhrinya jadi dan berhasil dan aman dan sehat untuk dimakan. Setelah melakukan berbagai 'trial and error' akhirnya gado-gado siap disajikan... jejeng, jejeng!!! ini hasilnya.... Kliatan enak khan?? kaann?? (awas kalo ngga!!)
Sambil menangis air mata bahagia *lebaayy*, lia dan cecenya akhirnya bisa menikmati gado-gado tersebut dengan lahap.. hahahahaha




btw, ini ada poto waktu lagi masak bumbunya gado-gado...

Ini beneran bumbunya gado-gado lo, meskipun terlihat seperti egg tart atau pastel tutup, tapi dijamin bumbu gado-gado 100% koq... hahahahaha