Facebook....

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Sure all of you know that facebook is a social network that help you to connect with others, but as the time goes by, facebook has changed into something else called: MEDICINE!

Why?

Obviously, people are searching for attention (uppss...) antidote for their so called 'broken heart'. By the way, it's not wrong to post status in facebook, to share what you do or to share what you think sometimes is good. But when it gets to far, then this is where everything goes wrong. 

Some emo or alay.. No i mean, some tooooo 'softhearted' person are too soft to tell their stories to people, some tooooooo 'softhearted' people feel so bad to tell their friends that he / she were angry with them therefore they post it on facebook.. Yeah right! 

So, i'm trying to fit in to their logic, therefore, this is my new discoveries:

1. Those 'softhearted' person feel that when they post such a heart-shattering post on facebook, they will get a lot of 'LOVE'...

Example:

"You said you were my best friend, you said you care about me. I've listed out your mistake, but you never realize your fault! You never even say sorry! I'm sorry i'm such a terrible friend, but i love you.. I truly do"  

Then in a few minutes, they gonna get thousands likes and comments... "Be strong.. Huggies.. muahh", "I know you are strong enough.. You can get through this", "Hugsssss...", "Kissssss", etc..

So, this is their meds! Strong right? Unlike panadol, you can take unlimited dosage for this meds!

2. Those 'softhearted' people think that if he / she blame people on facebook, and show their misery, that certain person / group will feel sorry for him / her therefore the problem will be solved!

Example:

"I just want you to say sorry to me???? Is that too much to ask??? I love you, i truly do, i still think that you are my friend.. I let you see all your fault that i listed out previously!!! But whyyyyy???????"

Aaaannnddd.. In a few second they will have thousand comments too! "Uh oh, your friends such a jerk, don't worry you deserve the better one", "Be strong!!!"... bla.. bla... blaa...

But the sad fact is: Usually addressed group / person think that he / she is crazy didn't even realize and end up ignoring him / her .... Well yahhhh.. Life is not an Indonesian drama...

But again, this time the comment and like are their meds, they feel stronger (though i think it will just last for a few second)...

My personal opinion in this one is: If this ever happen to me, i'll think that certain person is crazy.. And if giving a lil' kid a lollipop could shut their mouth, so i'll say sorry (without any sorry feeling though) to do the same thing ... 

3. This meds did not last long! For a beginner, it'll last for a few days. But for the addicted one, it'll only last for a few hours. It's shown by how frequent they post their status, sometimes the addicted one can post essay on facebook for every few hour. Thou they got exam or assignment tomorrow, it seems like it just take a second for them to write an essay on FB. 

Wow, i need their talent so that i can finish all my essay in the exam!

That's all my discoveries. Anyway, to write this post also take me almost one hour (i know i'm very slow >.<), therefore i need those emo toooooo 'softhearted' person talent to do it fast!

I know I've been very sarcastic for the whole post. But to those people who like to do all that i mention above, please bang your head to the wall and get back to your sense. Think, how many of your facebook friends who comment on your status really care of you? They can post thousand nice encouraging comment or like your status, but HOW MANY of them gonna sacrifice their time to hear you cry? Maybe no one! They can inbox you, they can message you to asked you what's wrong or telling you all those 'be strong' tale, but HOW MANY of them gonna run to your place just to comfort you? and HOW MANY of them, though they stay soo far away, willing to use up all their credit to call you to make sure that you are strong enough and you are ok?

If there is no one, then maybe stop all this addiction and start to get a real friends, open yourself to them! Don't think your friends is fortune teller who can read your feeling through your eyes / hand / feet / stomach / mouth / ass or even facebook! If you want them to love you, tell them! If you stay quiet and get hurt then post it on facebook, you just feed all those gossip addict for more things to be discovered. If you wish them to say sorry by staying quiet and being angry by thinking that none of them care, congratulation! You'll get to next world faster than them.



Note: All the examples is my own creativity! cool right???  

Lesson Learnt: Keeping A Poker Face Might Be Harmful

Hi.. Hello guys.. It's been so loong since i post my last post.. i did not plan to abandon this blog, but i feel so lazy to do some update. Zzzz... So, anyway, finally my university life come to its end. I've done my final year project, finish my exam and i have to start find job. Sad, i feel very sad.. There are thousand memory in the university, crazy one, sad one, happy one, stupid one, etc. I left USM with thousands mix feeling. Glad, because finally i've done my study and i don't have to face any more papers; Sad, because i have to face working world, honestly i hate working.. I also feel plain because i will start a new chapter and i don't know what should i do about it.

So, enough about bragging.. I write this post specially to express my shockness about something.. hihihii..

Once upon a time.. Two of my dear friends bring me to eat sarawakian food. It was my last day in Penang, so i really wanna go there and experience the real sarawakian food. When we reach there, me and one of my friend order mee sua sarawak, which is turn to be very very nice. The chicken was soft and the soup is really tasty... mmm *hungryagainhix*. And, one other friend, order a special authentic tasty unique extremely sooo sarawakian. The food called 'Kacang Ma'. 

I was surprised that even the waitress are reminding my friend about this Kacang Ma, so i'm become too excited to try it. Before that 'special' food came, both of my friends already remind me that the taste is really shocking, even their sabahan friends also could not eat it. So, when the food came, i'm really excited and not forget to mention that i prepare to keep a poker face (in case the food is really weird.. and...)

C: "Try la... But don't take too much, take a bit..."

Me: "Ok.." (take one spoon)

............

...........

!@#$%^&*? 
(shock but trying to be cool)

"Hmm... So authentic, so special..." 

C: (looking at me with a doubtful face) "So how?"

Me: (take another spoon) *nod* *nod* *speechless* 

C: "Try to eat it with rice, it'll be nice.."

(when the rice come...)

Me: (take another spoon) *speechless*...................... "OK! I cannot tahan la.." (finally i said it out)

C: *Laugh out Loud* hahahahhhahahah!!!!

Finally.. After making a lot of poker face, this food really tooo weird for my tounge. Honestly, i cant tolerate bitter taste, so actually it's really hard for me to keep a poker face, but i'm proud since i can keep it for almost 1 hour.. hahahahaha.. 

So, lesson learnt from here is... Better to not keep your poker face just to impress people, rather than that certain person ask you to eat that food over and over again... 

Till then.. Byee....

My Mood Today

I don't feel good today. I feel very pissed, easily feel annoyed and sensitive. I know it's not good, but i really cannot control it, i feel very angry... Recently, i think if people say something without any intention to offense me, i think i'll get offended.. I really feel unstable.. *sigh*
I wish i can run for now, find somewhere quiet to sit and think by myself.. I hope i can survive till the end... Amen >.<

A piece of my thought...

I just finish reading a novel titled Snow Flower and Secret Fan. Well, this novel was achingly beautiful, interesting, it bring you through a life journey of a girl named Lily. In this story she told more about her old same, Snow Flower. They have a very strong bond as a best friend and a sister and almost unbreakable... 

Well, hopefully i did not give you too much spoiler because it'll be good if you read it yourself. But personally, from this novel i think a lot about friendship and trust. I love my friends especially those that close to me and i don't want to lose them, so mostly when they intentionally or unintentionally hurt my feeling i'll keep quiet, just like what Lily do. To those that i treasure so much, i often stay quiet when they lie to me. If front people i'll say i don't mind, but deep inside i feel hurt. I'm not angry, i feel i don't have the right to be angry, but i feel sad. And again, maybe in that novel i was Lily, a type of person who hold everything inside and burst after so long. Thanks to that novel, i think twice to act as harsh as what Lily had done to her old same. But still, to act carefully does not means that the pain is gone, the pain is there but you are to scared to talk it out. You can say i'm too sensitive, exaggerating, etc; but sometimes some act are just too unbearable to be kept inside. And i don't want to end up like Lily in her 'sitting quietly' time, which she fill the rest of her life with regret and sadness. Maybe i'm too stress right now... *sigh*

Tired...

I'm tired.. I can't breathe, i feel suffocated. I don't know what's wrong with myself, i'm not even sure that i do the right things. I started to get tired of a certain people and i don't know whose fault is that.. Me? Him / Her? It's unclear. Everyone have their own reason why they do certain behavior, why they act like this, why they think like that. And the things that make people fight is because even though how good we are at reading others, we're not good enough in understanding them. We, or i can address this as I, are too busy to stick on our own understanding and principal.
If you ask me now, i won't say that i'm wrong, but i'm not sure if i'm right. Why? I also don't know. I Just feel that everything is too messy to become understandable for me and i don't know whether it's my fault or their fault, they changed or i changed.
All i wanna do now is cursing myself because i'm not bold enough, because i'm not brave enough to confront them and tell them what's wrong and solve this. All i can do is just complaining to others. I'm tired.........

Dilemma

I'm in a dilemma... Sometimes i wonder, am i too negative? Or am i too picky? Am I a perfectionist? Well, to tell you, i don't think i am.. But i dunno what others might think about me. I just want everything to be done just nice. I don't like a so so result with so so work, whenever you can do your best just do it.

Recently i just can't read some people out, they were just weird. I saw one friends that use to be a perfectionist and a high demand person. She wants the best work and she looks down on others. I don't know, for me when you look down on others that means you have the real quality that you can show to people. But recently everything seems like confusing, i don't know if it was me that not sensitive enough since the start or maybe it just happen like that. I was shock, that the girl that used to look down on others suddenly look up to this one guy, whom i don't think he have a quality. Well, he do have mouth though. He can provoke people well, he can make things from bad to worse successfully and he can think as if the world was his! Well, i don't know whether her feelings for him is love or affection or whatever, but what i care is this things start to affect her works. She started to agree to everything that he said (even though sometimes the thing is obviously ridiculous), she started to trust him without reason even though this guy fail her more than 3 times (well, not yet thousand times maybe), but it affect everything. I feel pity to her, she used to be someone that have a high demand and arrogant, but end up looking up at someone that everyone is looking down at, for me it's just ironic. Well, i don't know.. This is my biased opinion and it might be very judgmental, but in fact, it affects everyone.... *sigh*

I need an Escapism

I need a break, i wanna runaway.. As far as i can, from my project and from my problem. Why problems have to come during a heavy time like this? I wonder why. You can say i'm weak, but i just wanna runaway...